Songs of the moment

I've decided most of my emotions I get out through song and dance. 
What I'm listening to completely depends on my mood. 
 Here are some songs of choice for my life. 
Some of them do have meaning, some of them i just enjoy listening to.

The Show
Lenka

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

Right now I really do want my money back. Who knew Gadzooks had
such a horrible return policy? Anyways this song to me is just chill
and happy and fun. and that's the way I like to be. I like how
it's like c'mon slow it down, just enjoy life! which I'm doing
right now. I love my life :D

Goodbye From California
Lindsey Ray

I dipped my toes in the ocean today
I felt the sun shining down on my face
There isn't even one single cloud in the sky
The only sign of doubt is the one that's behind me
So tell me, how are you?

What did you think that I would do when I told you I was leaving?
You didn't blink, you just assumed that you're the one I needed
And I tried and I tried and I tried some more
Then I thought what is all this trying for?
Don't say I didn't warn ya
Goodbye from California

I'm in my flip flops on Hollywood and Vine
I heard it snowed another foot there last night
And even though the life I have at home is ending
I've really got a feeling that it's all beginning now
So tell me how are you?

What did you think that I would do when I told you I was leaving?
You didn't blink, you just assumed that you're the one I needed
And I tried and I tried and I tried some more
Then I thought what is all this trying for?
Don't say I didn't warn ya
Goodbye from California

Now that I've had a taste
Got no more time to waste
With my head up in the clouds
Is that a lump in your throat
As you're reading what I wrote?
It's over now

What did you think that I would do when I told you I was leaving?
You didn't blink, you just assumed that you're the one I needed
And I tried and I tried and I tried some more
Then I thought what is all this trying for?
Don't say I didn't warn ya
Goodbye from California

What did you think that I would do when I told you I was leaving?
You didn't blink, you just assumed that you're the one I needed
And I tried and I tried and I tried some more
Then I thought what is all this trying for?
Don't say I didn't warn ya
Goodbye from California

This is the song I enjoy listening to right now in the snow because
I've decided I'm moving to California until spring actually comes.
It's also a very fun song!

The Ending
Lindsay McCaul

I would be lying if I said it didn't hurt just a little
watching the years go by and knowing you're not here
every confusing situation plays itself out like a riddle
since I'm being honest might as well admit my fear

Cuz it seems like ages that I've waited for the feeling for the knowing
everyone farther down the road says is a sign
so I'll just keep walking I'll keep on waiting
through the heart ache and the growing
cuz baby I know you'll be worth the lonely times

And so I will wait for you
You know I will wait until I'm sure that it is you
cuz I would hate to miss the ending
of a story that is pending till the author moves to see our story through

If i had a dime for every time an intention intervention
tried to convince me you were only in my dreams
well then I'd be rich but I'd be wishin you could join my celebration
if only to prove I'm not as crazy as I seem

And so I will wait for you
You know I will wait until I'm sure that it is you
'causeI would hate to miss the ending
of a story that is pending till the author moves to see our story through

and every bend in the road gets my hopes up
that you are just around the corner out of sight
but if it takes a hundred years through the longing and the tears
rest assured my heart is steadfast day and night

And so I will wait for you
You know I will wait until I'm sure that it is you
'causeI would hate to miss the ending
of a story that is pending till the author moves to see our story through

This song is just beautiful. I choreographed a dance to it this year for my clayton productions group and I'll probably post that on here sooner or later. Right now the song doesn't really mean much cuz it's not to anyone specifically, but I'm enjoying my wait. May it be a VERY long one. Once again, I love my life!

"Love Another Day"
Rascal Flatts

It's 3 AM and you're still wide awake
Wondering how much more your broken heart can take
All he left you with was shattered dreams
I know it's hard to see right now, it's not as bad as it seems

You'll live to love another day
Happiness is on it's way
Hold on
It won't be long
I know the pain you're living in
Sometimes you've got to lose to win
It's okay
Don't you worry baby
We all live to love another day

I know you say you've lost your faith in love
And it's not written in the stars above
I wouldn't tell you anything but the truth
I've been where you are
And I'm living proof

You'll live to love another day
Happiness is on it's way
Hold on
It won't be long
I know the pain you're living in
Sometimes you've got to lose to win
It's okay
Don't you worry baby
We all live to love another day

What's here right now didn't come to stay
The sun is gonna rise again and the clouds will roll away
Believe me when I say

You'll live to love another day
Happiness is on it's way
Hold on, hold on
I know the pain you're living in
Sometimes you've got to lose to win
It's okay
Don't you worry baby
We all live to love another day

Don't you worry baby
We all live to love another day

My friend showed me this song after my silly childish ranting about love post. I enjoy it. I enjoy her. Thanks lovey! Anyways. It's a goody and it makes me happy!

There you go! Stacey's songs of the moment. I will put more up later, but for now I'm going to bed. Gnight ya'll! May your dreams be as sweet as you are! haha I'm tired :D
love you!
ps i know the spacing is weird and I really don't want to fix it right now so have fun reading this!

I love my life!

#1 reason why I love my life. My parents are amazing. My family is amazing. Without all of them my life would be so different!
Newsflash: We are hot! :D

I love love love my niece!
"Most people can't do what we do" "Ya, high fives to us. We rock"
Definitely one of the nicest girls I've EVER met

I love you celeste!

I love my life. not because of the actions, but because of my reactions.

Sure some crappy things have happened to me, but I chose to be happy.

That is all.

Oh ya my best friend Taylor (the girl one baha) is visiting this week. for yay!

I am ready for love... not!

This is a rant on love. It's pretty childish, stupid, and lame, but it's just gotta get out somewhere. Not really inspirational or helpful so... ya.

So I was reading through my ninth grade blog and I came across a song I put on there called "Ready for Love" here's the lyrics. it's a beautiful song and I highly recommend you download it.

I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
Id quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity

I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately Ive been thinking
Maybe youre not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
Ill say the same thing

I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I wont complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here

If you give me half a chance
Ill prove this to you
I will be patience, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respects the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If youll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

I am ready for love
Here with a offering of
My voice
My eyes
My soul
My mind

Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love

Now I look back at that and I just must laugh really. The thing about why I felt I was so ready for love in junior high is (i didn't figure this out until my senior year) a large portion of how I felt about myself was based on how boys felt about me. The longest time period that I was single from like 6th grade to 12th grade was like 3 weeks. yikes. not a good idea.
So when I had struggles with my relationship my senior year, my entire world went to chaos. I lost like 15 lbs in a month, I couldn't eat, I HATED the sound of the alarm clock in the morning cuz I just had to wake up to go to school and see him flirting with her. it was awful and I was an idiot.
So that's a foreword to why I think that song is so funny. Ever since my last real relationship, my heart is still broken. It literally still hurts. I know that's cheezy and stupid but it's really hard if you didn't break up cuz you didn't like them anymore. If you still have feelings for them. If they're still your best friend. Now I have a wall around my feelings. I don't want anyone to hurt me and even more than that I don't want to hurt anyone else. It's not really a healthy way of living. Or is it?
Anyways, my bishop does this cool thing where he answers the questions from kids in the ward. The last question was something along the lines of "What do I do when my heart's been shattered?" Katie and Celeste laughed but it really struck a chord with me. That's really how I am right now. Can't give away my heart cuz I never really got it back and if I ever do I know it most definately won't be the same. I was just hurt so badly. So badly. Anyways again, my bishop reminded us that "it only takes one" and to be honest, I'm not looking for "the one" right now, I don't even want a boyfriend. But I should let people into my life and love them. I should be willing to be friends with guys. I shouldn't dread every night I go on a date. Because sometimes, you end up having a really great time and even if it doens't go anywhere, you had fun. And fun is good :D.
I really don't know what my point is in all this. Basically I think I just would never say this to anyone, but for some reason I can type it all up. Oh and please don't think I hate anyone for ever hurting me. I've learned so much from every relationship I've ever been in.
I just don't want to get hurt again.
But I should be willing to let people get close to me.
Now I just wonder if I actually will.

Why I loved Junior high

I won't lie- this probably was the #1 reason. what an amazing kid. He'll probably never know how much he impacted my life.

Brother Smith changed my life! Without him my entire way of studying, and maybe thinking and acting would be different.

I love these kids!

Crazy day... YESSSS
The play! made my life busy, but it was so worth it! look at cute little alex!

SBOs these girls were so great to work with!

Allie and Jaimie - you will never know how much you helped me. You're amazing

Such helpful friends! They helped with both my brothers weddings, they brought me soup and cards when I was sick AND they cleaned my house with me when I was grounded until it was clean!

My two best friends in Jr high for sure!

Best Friends Forever! I'm so glad we still get to play in our ward! I love you girls!


Monday I was in my institute class with Michael Wilcox and he was talking about how badly he hated junior high. He said it was a terrible time to be alive then he asked if anyone in the class actually liked junior high. I raised my hand high. I LOVED junior high! and I was THE ONLY PERSON in a class of about 50 to raise my hand... woah dude I had no idea! (He then made a funny comment "oh that's just stacey, she'll be translated in a few years" which I though was silly and he really was just making fun of me, but it is nice to know he thinks highly of me because I have an amazing amount of respect for that man - he's amazin!) anyways that's not the point. This is the point:
THANK YOU ALL OF MY AMAZING AND WONDERFUL FRIENDS!
I had the most amazing friends in junior high! (and high school and college- I love you guys)I realized the reason why I loved junior high so much was because of my friends. Ninth grade was seriously the best year of my life (so far!) I had incredible friends in such a critical time in my life. I will never be able to thank you enough. ever!
Going back to institute - Brother Wilcox then told a story of how when he publishes his books, he always thinks "what would brother Packard think about this?" Then he realized he should be thinking "what would Christ say about this?" then he made another realization that it's ok to wonder about Packard too because he would think along the same lines as Christ. Then it was time for me to make a bunch of realizations. I realized I always think "What would Nate or Celeste (or any of my amazing friends!) think about this?" and even though I realized I should be focusing more on Christ, its ok to think about things that way too because you guys are helping me go in the right direction! how amazing is that! thank you all so much!

To my amazing friends: you have made me who I am. consider yourself accountable.

A story so good it deserves its own post

A few weeks ago, something really special happened. As a prequel to this story, I must also remind you of another story I’ve told. At least I think most of you know about it. I’ve just recently listened to one of Bednar’s talks and he talked about how quickly his wife was at responding to the spirit. He said that she always helped others out and they always asked him “how does she know?” I decided that I want to be that person who answers prayers, who helps other people. That is what I want to do with my life. My number one goal.
SO… For my sorority, we do a 24 hour golden fast and we’re supposed to fast for one of the four ideals (sisterhood service scholarship… I can never remember the last). I chose to fast for sisterhood since well… I don’t think I’m very good at that considering I have like 3 girl friends… the rest are dudes. any ways I wanted to improve my relations with my girls around me and be able to answer their prayers, help them out, and most importantly bring them closer to Heavenly Father. (cuz you can’t bring someone closer to God without getting closer to God yourself right? :D) When I fast, I like to go from noon to noon just because that’s the easiest way for me to do it. I decided to start my fast at the institute and end it at the institute because I’m write around there at noon everyday… just what I thought was a random decision. I went in to start my fast and had one of their delectable soup bowls number one because it would fill me up really well and number two because they’re amazing. I ate one of those, randomly decided to play basketball for a while, then I finally decided to go sit at the trax station and wait for my chariot trax to take me to my palace (NOT!) On my way out, I noticed one of the girls in the presidency of Lamda Delta Sigma, Jessi, sitting down. I went over and talked to her and just told her that I look up to her and think she’s amazing and beautiful and she’s a light to everyone at the institute, everyone around her, and myself. This is something I say to a lot of girls and never thought much of it. Not about what I was saying but I never thought it made that big of impact on their life (and no worries I don’t say it to a lot of people to make them feel good, I say it to a lot of people to show my appreciation and gratitude for how many amazing people I’m associated with, I would never tell that to someone if I didn’t believe it) anyways as soon as I said that she sort of looked up and began crying. She told me I was an answer to prayers with tears in her eyes. Since then, I’ve become her friend ( I didn’t know her at all before) and I still don’t know what her prayer was but it was amazing that TWO minutes after I started my fast for sisterhood, my prayers were already answered by me being an answer and strengthening my relationship with the wonderful women around me. I’m so grateful that I had this experience! Afterward, I just wanted to jump on the trax and yell to everyone “THE CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST OF LATER DAY SAINTS IS TRUE!!! I KNOW IT I KNOW IT I KNOW IT!” but you can’t really go about it that way… so I didn’t. But I have shared the story with some people and I hope it’s helped them to know that God loves every one of us!

so basically that was amazing... and this has nothing to do with it. but i like it.
My cousin in law sent me a quote the other day and I want to share it with you all. It’s
“Dance with God and he’ll let the perfect man cut in”
I love this so much and it’s totally the way I’m living my life right now!
I'll be honest I'm kind of avoiding the whole boy thing right now... they scare me. long story why which I may tell one day. but I think I just won't worry about it and if the perfect man comes along, he will!

Oh ya! one last thing! tonight I got to announce John Bytheway for the fireside... read his bio and such. it was awesome. he is my favorite for sure! I love how he 1 can be funny and keep the spirit and 2 breaks down gospel principals in easy to understand bites!

I love you all!