Songs of the moment

I've decided most of my emotions I get out through song and dance. 
What I'm listening to completely depends on my mood. 
 Here are some songs of choice for my life. 
Some of them do have meaning, some of them i just enjoy listening to.

The Show
Lenka

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

Right now I really do want my money back. Who knew Gadzooks had
such a horrible return policy? Anyways this song to me is just chill
and happy and fun. and that's the way I like to be. I like how
it's like c'mon slow it down, just enjoy life! which I'm doing
right now. I love my life :D

Goodbye From California
Lindsey Ray

I dipped my toes in the ocean today
I felt the sun shining down on my face
There isn't even one single cloud in the sky
The only sign of doubt is the one that's behind me
So tell me, how are you?

What did you think that I would do when I told you I was leaving?
You didn't blink, you just assumed that you're the one I needed
And I tried and I tried and I tried some more
Then I thought what is all this trying for?
Don't say I didn't warn ya
Goodbye from California

I'm in my flip flops on Hollywood and Vine
I heard it snowed another foot there last night
And even though the life I have at home is ending
I've really got a feeling that it's all beginning now
So tell me how are you?

What did you think that I would do when I told you I was leaving?
You didn't blink, you just assumed that you're the one I needed
And I tried and I tried and I tried some more
Then I thought what is all this trying for?
Don't say I didn't warn ya
Goodbye from California

Now that I've had a taste
Got no more time to waste
With my head up in the clouds
Is that a lump in your throat
As you're reading what I wrote?
It's over now

What did you think that I would do when I told you I was leaving?
You didn't blink, you just assumed that you're the one I needed
And I tried and I tried and I tried some more
Then I thought what is all this trying for?
Don't say I didn't warn ya
Goodbye from California

What did you think that I would do when I told you I was leaving?
You didn't blink, you just assumed that you're the one I needed
And I tried and I tried and I tried some more
Then I thought what is all this trying for?
Don't say I didn't warn ya
Goodbye from California

This is the song I enjoy listening to right now in the snow because
I've decided I'm moving to California until spring actually comes.
It's also a very fun song!

The Ending
Lindsay McCaul

I would be lying if I said it didn't hurt just a little
watching the years go by and knowing you're not here
every confusing situation plays itself out like a riddle
since I'm being honest might as well admit my fear

Cuz it seems like ages that I've waited for the feeling for the knowing
everyone farther down the road says is a sign
so I'll just keep walking I'll keep on waiting
through the heart ache and the growing
cuz baby I know you'll be worth the lonely times

And so I will wait for you
You know I will wait until I'm sure that it is you
cuz I would hate to miss the ending
of a story that is pending till the author moves to see our story through

If i had a dime for every time an intention intervention
tried to convince me you were only in my dreams
well then I'd be rich but I'd be wishin you could join my celebration
if only to prove I'm not as crazy as I seem

And so I will wait for you
You know I will wait until I'm sure that it is you
'causeI would hate to miss the ending
of a story that is pending till the author moves to see our story through

and every bend in the road gets my hopes up
that you are just around the corner out of sight
but if it takes a hundred years through the longing and the tears
rest assured my heart is steadfast day and night

And so I will wait for you
You know I will wait until I'm sure that it is you
'causeI would hate to miss the ending
of a story that is pending till the author moves to see our story through

This song is just beautiful. I choreographed a dance to it this year for my clayton productions group and I'll probably post that on here sooner or later. Right now the song doesn't really mean much cuz it's not to anyone specifically, but I'm enjoying my wait. May it be a VERY long one. Once again, I love my life!

"Love Another Day"
Rascal Flatts

It's 3 AM and you're still wide awake
Wondering how much more your broken heart can take
All he left you with was shattered dreams
I know it's hard to see right now, it's not as bad as it seems

You'll live to love another day
Happiness is on it's way
Hold on
It won't be long
I know the pain you're living in
Sometimes you've got to lose to win
It's okay
Don't you worry baby
We all live to love another day

I know you say you've lost your faith in love
And it's not written in the stars above
I wouldn't tell you anything but the truth
I've been where you are
And I'm living proof

You'll live to love another day
Happiness is on it's way
Hold on
It won't be long
I know the pain you're living in
Sometimes you've got to lose to win
It's okay
Don't you worry baby
We all live to love another day

What's here right now didn't come to stay
The sun is gonna rise again and the clouds will roll away
Believe me when I say

You'll live to love another day
Happiness is on it's way
Hold on, hold on
I know the pain you're living in
Sometimes you've got to lose to win
It's okay
Don't you worry baby
We all live to love another day

Don't you worry baby
We all live to love another day

My friend showed me this song after my silly childish ranting about love post. I enjoy it. I enjoy her. Thanks lovey! Anyways. It's a goody and it makes me happy!

There you go! Stacey's songs of the moment. I will put more up later, but for now I'm going to bed. Gnight ya'll! May your dreams be as sweet as you are! haha I'm tired :D
love you!
ps i know the spacing is weird and I really don't want to fix it right now so have fun reading this!

I love my life!

#1 reason why I love my life. My parents are amazing. My family is amazing. Without all of them my life would be so different!
Newsflash: We are hot! :D

I love love love my niece!
"Most people can't do what we do" "Ya, high fives to us. We rock"
Definitely one of the nicest girls I've EVER met

I love you celeste!

I love my life. not because of the actions, but because of my reactions.

Sure some crappy things have happened to me, but I chose to be happy.

That is all.

Oh ya my best friend Taylor (the girl one baha) is visiting this week. for yay!

I am ready for love... not!

This is a rant on love. It's pretty childish, stupid, and lame, but it's just gotta get out somewhere. Not really inspirational or helpful so... ya.

So I was reading through my ninth grade blog and I came across a song I put on there called "Ready for Love" here's the lyrics. it's a beautiful song and I highly recommend you download it.

I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
Id quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity

I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately Ive been thinking
Maybe youre not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
Ill say the same thing

I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I wont complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here

If you give me half a chance
Ill prove this to you
I will be patience, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respects the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If youll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

I am ready for love
Here with a offering of
My voice
My eyes
My soul
My mind

Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love

Now I look back at that and I just must laugh really. The thing about why I felt I was so ready for love in junior high is (i didn't figure this out until my senior year) a large portion of how I felt about myself was based on how boys felt about me. The longest time period that I was single from like 6th grade to 12th grade was like 3 weeks. yikes. not a good idea.
So when I had struggles with my relationship my senior year, my entire world went to chaos. I lost like 15 lbs in a month, I couldn't eat, I HATED the sound of the alarm clock in the morning cuz I just had to wake up to go to school and see him flirting with her. it was awful and I was an idiot.
So that's a foreword to why I think that song is so funny. Ever since my last real relationship, my heart is still broken. It literally still hurts. I know that's cheezy and stupid but it's really hard if you didn't break up cuz you didn't like them anymore. If you still have feelings for them. If they're still your best friend. Now I have a wall around my feelings. I don't want anyone to hurt me and even more than that I don't want to hurt anyone else. It's not really a healthy way of living. Or is it?
Anyways, my bishop does this cool thing where he answers the questions from kids in the ward. The last question was something along the lines of "What do I do when my heart's been shattered?" Katie and Celeste laughed but it really struck a chord with me. That's really how I am right now. Can't give away my heart cuz I never really got it back and if I ever do I know it most definately won't be the same. I was just hurt so badly. So badly. Anyways again, my bishop reminded us that "it only takes one" and to be honest, I'm not looking for "the one" right now, I don't even want a boyfriend. But I should let people into my life and love them. I should be willing to be friends with guys. I shouldn't dread every night I go on a date. Because sometimes, you end up having a really great time and even if it doens't go anywhere, you had fun. And fun is good :D.
I really don't know what my point is in all this. Basically I think I just would never say this to anyone, but for some reason I can type it all up. Oh and please don't think I hate anyone for ever hurting me. I've learned so much from every relationship I've ever been in.
I just don't want to get hurt again.
But I should be willing to let people get close to me.
Now I just wonder if I actually will.

Why I loved Junior high

I won't lie- this probably was the #1 reason. what an amazing kid. He'll probably never know how much he impacted my life.

Brother Smith changed my life! Without him my entire way of studying, and maybe thinking and acting would be different.

I love these kids!

Crazy day... YESSSS
The play! made my life busy, but it was so worth it! look at cute little alex!

SBOs these girls were so great to work with!

Allie and Jaimie - you will never know how much you helped me. You're amazing

Such helpful friends! They helped with both my brothers weddings, they brought me soup and cards when I was sick AND they cleaned my house with me when I was grounded until it was clean!

My two best friends in Jr high for sure!

Best Friends Forever! I'm so glad we still get to play in our ward! I love you girls!


Monday I was in my institute class with Michael Wilcox and he was talking about how badly he hated junior high. He said it was a terrible time to be alive then he asked if anyone in the class actually liked junior high. I raised my hand high. I LOVED junior high! and I was THE ONLY PERSON in a class of about 50 to raise my hand... woah dude I had no idea! (He then made a funny comment "oh that's just stacey, she'll be translated in a few years" which I though was silly and he really was just making fun of me, but it is nice to know he thinks highly of me because I have an amazing amount of respect for that man - he's amazin!) anyways that's not the point. This is the point:
THANK YOU ALL OF MY AMAZING AND WONDERFUL FRIENDS!
I had the most amazing friends in junior high! (and high school and college- I love you guys)I realized the reason why I loved junior high so much was because of my friends. Ninth grade was seriously the best year of my life (so far!) I had incredible friends in such a critical time in my life. I will never be able to thank you enough. ever!
Going back to institute - Brother Wilcox then told a story of how when he publishes his books, he always thinks "what would brother Packard think about this?" Then he realized he should be thinking "what would Christ say about this?" then he made another realization that it's ok to wonder about Packard too because he would think along the same lines as Christ. Then it was time for me to make a bunch of realizations. I realized I always think "What would Nate or Celeste (or any of my amazing friends!) think about this?" and even though I realized I should be focusing more on Christ, its ok to think about things that way too because you guys are helping me go in the right direction! how amazing is that! thank you all so much!

To my amazing friends: you have made me who I am. consider yourself accountable.

A story so good it deserves its own post

A few weeks ago, something really special happened. As a prequel to this story, I must also remind you of another story I’ve told. At least I think most of you know about it. I’ve just recently listened to one of Bednar’s talks and he talked about how quickly his wife was at responding to the spirit. He said that she always helped others out and they always asked him “how does she know?” I decided that I want to be that person who answers prayers, who helps other people. That is what I want to do with my life. My number one goal.
SO… For my sorority, we do a 24 hour golden fast and we’re supposed to fast for one of the four ideals (sisterhood service scholarship… I can never remember the last). I chose to fast for sisterhood since well… I don’t think I’m very good at that considering I have like 3 girl friends… the rest are dudes. any ways I wanted to improve my relations with my girls around me and be able to answer their prayers, help them out, and most importantly bring them closer to Heavenly Father. (cuz you can’t bring someone closer to God without getting closer to God yourself right? :D) When I fast, I like to go from noon to noon just because that’s the easiest way for me to do it. I decided to start my fast at the institute and end it at the institute because I’m write around there at noon everyday… just what I thought was a random decision. I went in to start my fast and had one of their delectable soup bowls number one because it would fill me up really well and number two because they’re amazing. I ate one of those, randomly decided to play basketball for a while, then I finally decided to go sit at the trax station and wait for my chariot trax to take me to my palace (NOT!) On my way out, I noticed one of the girls in the presidency of Lamda Delta Sigma, Jessi, sitting down. I went over and talked to her and just told her that I look up to her and think she’s amazing and beautiful and she’s a light to everyone at the institute, everyone around her, and myself. This is something I say to a lot of girls and never thought much of it. Not about what I was saying but I never thought it made that big of impact on their life (and no worries I don’t say it to a lot of people to make them feel good, I say it to a lot of people to show my appreciation and gratitude for how many amazing people I’m associated with, I would never tell that to someone if I didn’t believe it) anyways as soon as I said that she sort of looked up and began crying. She told me I was an answer to prayers with tears in her eyes. Since then, I’ve become her friend ( I didn’t know her at all before) and I still don’t know what her prayer was but it was amazing that TWO minutes after I started my fast for sisterhood, my prayers were already answered by me being an answer and strengthening my relationship with the wonderful women around me. I’m so grateful that I had this experience! Afterward, I just wanted to jump on the trax and yell to everyone “THE CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST OF LATER DAY SAINTS IS TRUE!!! I KNOW IT I KNOW IT I KNOW IT!” but you can’t really go about it that way… so I didn’t. But I have shared the story with some people and I hope it’s helped them to know that God loves every one of us!

so basically that was amazing... and this has nothing to do with it. but i like it.
My cousin in law sent me a quote the other day and I want to share it with you all. It’s
“Dance with God and he’ll let the perfect man cut in”
I love this so much and it’s totally the way I’m living my life right now!
I'll be honest I'm kind of avoiding the whole boy thing right now... they scare me. long story why which I may tell one day. but I think I just won't worry about it and if the perfect man comes along, he will!

Oh ya! one last thing! tonight I got to announce John Bytheway for the fireside... read his bio and such. it was awesome. he is my favorite for sure! I love how he 1 can be funny and keep the spirit and 2 breaks down gospel principals in easy to understand bites!

I love you all!

BYU Scholarship

So I'm transfering to the Y and I'm hoping to get the scholarship that I was rewarded last year back, or even more hopefully (me go college to) get an even better one. Katie who is basically my best friend ever is going to read these essays and let me know what she thinks. If you are not katie, do not feel obligated to read these. if you are katie, you don't need to either , but you are amazing so you will and I love you!

Brigham Young University Scholarship Committee,
If you would have told me a year ago that I would be going to the University of Utah my freshman year of college – or ever – I probably would have laughed at you. Now after going against my “true blue” family and running with the Utes, I’ve learned that everything has its good qualities.
The circumstances of why I ended up at the University of Utah are complicated, but put simply – the Lord is a better planner than me so it’s better to follow him in the light instead of trying to find my way through the dark. I know that I was to stay at home to be a missionary, to help my mom, and to ultimately make me a better person and prepare me for life.
As my friends are getting called to exotic places to speak a Babel of different languages, I am teaching the same gospel of Jesus Christ here at home. I have been teaching everyone around me the gospel of Jesus Christ – non-member, inactive-member, and member alike. I am being the best missionary I can be first through being an example. I am living up to the name I accepted as I was baptized. I’ve grown to know that Matthew 6:21 is true when it says “For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.” My heart it devoted to Christ, his teachings, and his church. It is something that comes up with my peers on a daily basis because I’ve learned that it is what has made me who I am. I tell others about the Church when I tell them about my weekend. I tell others about Christ’s teaching when they ask me my opinion. I share my testimony about the Book of Mormon when I set my Book of Mormon on the seat next to me on Trax to hopefully start up a conversation. I do the Lord’s work as I go to the temple for baptisms every Friday. Even if I don’t end up baptizing any of my new friends this year or bring others back into the church (which hopefully will happen!), I am being the best missionary I can be by being an example.
I know a huge reason why I was to stay at home this year was for my mom. There are intimate details which I won’t get into, but with all of her kids now married and her only other daughter moving to Washington D.C. this year, I just know she would’ve had a hard time without me staying at home. I’ve grown closer to my parents than I’ve ever been and have learned to show my appreciation through a trick I learned in one of John Bytheway’s talks – I write them thank you notes and stick them on their bedroom door at night. This is just one of the many ways I’ve grown closer to my parents, especially my mom, and I am blessed to have been able to spend another year with them.
The University of Utah has made me a better person and I have tried to make it a better place. I have learned a lot of patience and understanding being surrounded by vocal students who don’t agree with my beliefs. Many times during class (where I know I wasn’t the only LDS student) I have had to stand up for my beliefs and clarify different ideas others have about the church. This has been a huge growing experience for me and I’m grateful I was able to have it. Because I am being made a stronger person at the U, I’m trying to help the U become a better place too. Most of this is being done through the institute – my home away from home. I am enrolled in 5 classes (Book of Mormon 2, New Testament 1, Choir, Freshman Committee, and Fireside Committee) and am also in a sorority so I basically live there. I have learned so much through my teachers and leaders there, that even though I’m trying to give back all that I can I will never be able to repay them all.
As you’re awarding scholarships this year, I felt I should mention I am putting myself through school.
I’m so grateful for my experience at the University of Utah, but I’m ready to trade in my feathers for some fur.
See you next year!
Stacey Marie Hansen

Please write a brief biographical sketch about yourself.

If someone else was writing my biography, they could write of the awards I’ve won, the leaderships positions I’ve held, and the hours of service I’ve given to everyone around me.
This is not a biography, but an autobiography.
My mom used to call me a “walking resume” because I’d accomplished a lot of things and if you knew me, you knew about those accomplishments; however, now I’ve finally learned something I’ve always known, but never truly understood – no one cares how much you know until they know how much you care.
Starting the first day of the Junior Miss State Scholarship Program, I dedicated my life to others. I wasn’t in it to win it – I was in it to help others a long the way. I wrote thank you cards and notes of encouragement to everyone in the program; I listened to how amazing the other girls were instead of telling them about my accomplishments; I congratulated them on their achievements and thanked them for being an example to me, being proud of them instead of making myself look better than them. I learned what it was like to really love others.
I think the other girls could tell how much I truly loved them and they showed their appreciation when they voted me the “Miss Congeniality” – the first of three times I won that award that year.
This one week set the precedent for the rest of my life. I’m never in anything for myself; I’m always there to help others along the way, especially in our most important journey - the journey back to our Heavenly Father
Now my whole goal is to help others along the way, and it helps me too because it’s impossible to help others become closer to God without getting closer to Him yourself.


Please describe your educational, professional, and other goals. Describe how BYU
will help you achieve them.

I had the best job in the world. I worked in a salon for girls 14 and younger called “Sweet and Sassy.” During the Summer, if you asked me what I was doing that day I would reply “I have work today!” and not in that bored or dreaded tone, but an enthusiastic one. Every day I got to do girl’s nails, make up, and my favorite – hair. Sweet and Sassy was my dream job.
Then on September 13, 2008 my dream business became nightmarishly bankrupt. I never received a call, text, or even an e-mail from my boss. A text from my coworker telling me the business had been shut down and she would miss me was the only indication I received of the failure. I was crushed.
I feel like the business was closed down because of poor management. Those running the salon were nice girls, but they weren’t educated as well as they should have been to run a serious business. This is why when I open my own Sweet and Sassy, I will do it with the knowledge, background, and degree in business at Brigham Young University.
Even though I’ll be working with hair and nails, I must learn how to work with numbers and balance sheets too.


Please list and/or describe your participation and leadership in extracurricular activities, including performance groups, athletics, cultural

Service
• Make a Wish Foundation, 2005-2008
• Big Brother Big Sister, 2006-2007
• Volunteer Taught at Clayton Productions, Summer 2006
• Raised $600 for a Sub-for-Santa, Christmas 2004
• Locks of Love, 2005
• Interact Club, 2006-2008
• Key Club, 2006-2008
• Family, Career and Community Leaders of America, 2007-2008
• Renaissance Club, 2006-2008
• Art With Heart, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008
• Capitol Ambassador, 2008
• Helped with Church Meetings at Murray Care Center, 2002-2008
• Service through my Young Women group in my ward, 2002-2008

Leadership
• Institute Freshman Committee, 2009
• Institute Fireside Committee, 2009
• Student Body President of Hillcrest Jr. High, 2005-2006
• Senior Class Vice President, 2007-2008
• Head Captain of Drill Team, 2007-2008
• Captain of Drill Team, 2006-2007
• Drill Team Member, 2005-2006
• Captain of dance team at The Winner School, 2004-2005
• Building Coordinator for my ward house, 2009
• Beehive President 2003-2004,
• Mia Maid Counselor, 2005-2006,
• Laurel Counselor, 2007-2008
• Kiwanis Freedom Leadership Award, 2005
• Senior Representative for Renaissance Club
• Interact Club Historian, 2006-2007; Secretary, 2007-2008
• Homecoming Royalty, 2007
• Senior Ball Princess, 2008
• Seventh Grade Vice President, 2002-2003

Academic Achievements
• 4.0 at University of Utah, 2008
• Dean’s List, University of Utah, 2008
• 4.0 Cumulative GPA, 7th - 12th grades
• 29 Composite ACT score, September 2007
• Top Ten Student at Murray High, 2008
• All Region Academic Award, 2006, 2007
• All State Academic Award, 2008
• National Honors Society, 2007-2008
• Honor Roll, 7th - 12th grades
• 1st in Class Ranking, 7th -12th grades
• Recognition Award, 2005
• President's Education Award, 2005


Honors and Awards
• Young Womanhood Recognition Award, 2004
• Top Outstanding Service Award, 2009
• Above and Beyond Award, Make A Wish Foundation, 2008
• Miss Congeniality, Miss Murray, 2008
• Miss Congeniality, Miss Castle Valley, 2008
• Utah’s Spirit of Junior Miss, 2008
• Junior Miss “has been” Motivational Speaker, 2008-2009
• Junior Miss Northern Utah, 2008
• 1st attendant, Miss Murray, 2008
• Miss Photogenic, Miss Murray, 2008
• All-State Drill Team, 2008
• Soroptimist International Violet Richardson - Volunteer Community Service Award, 2008
• President’s Volunteer Service Award, 2008
• Top 25 Corps Basic Dance Training Drill Camp, 2006, 2007
• Choreographed 1st Place Captains Routine, 2006-2007
• National Hip Hop Champion, 2008
• National Military Champion, 2007
• Dancer of the Year at The Winner School, 2005
• Hardest Worker of Drill Team, 2006
• Hip Hop Scholarship at NUVO Dance Convention, 2008
• Jazz Scholarship at Jump Dance Convention, 2005
• Most Excited Award, 2005

Athletic and Other Involvement
• Institute Choir, 2009
• Mormon Tabernacle Choir Christmas Concert Dancer, 2008
• Day of Celebration Dancer, 2005
• Sweet and Sassy “Glittery Glam Girl” and Receptionist, 2008
• Wasatch Revolution Dance Team, 2009
• Teaching Dance, Clayton Productions, 2008-2009
• Dream Company, Clayton Productions, 2009
• Drill Team, Member 2006, Captain 2007, Head Captain 2008
• The Winner School, Company Prep 2005 Senior Elite 2006, 2007, Senior Company 2008, Taking classes 2009
• Utah’s Junior Miss Scholarship State Program, 2008
• A Capella Choir, 2007-2008
• War and Stake Choir, 2004-2009
• Miss Murray Scholarship Program. 2007, 2008
• Hunt's Gymnastics, 2006-2008
• Clayton Productions, 1995-2005

Bowl Blog

incredible shirt... it's a children's nightgown.. size 6... i added rhinestones.
never tell me i'm too old to be a princess
i am a daughter of a heavenly king and always will be!




what better to do during the bowl than blog?
This week was like the rest of my life. Incredible.
Tuesday I went to the U of U vs BYU game with the Sigma boys… I go to the U… My cousin plays on BYU’s team…
I wore purple
Wednesday I had institute choir (we’re singing in conference! Saturday afternoon!) and it was awesome! The Sigma boys are amazing and came and brought me a rose with a cute poem. I love them. They’re incredible. All the girls (like all 60 of em) did that whole AAAAwwwwWWW thing. Great. Incredible. Love it.
Thursday Me and Jessica Wathen went to the temple open house. Recently, we’ve both been a bit of cry babies. She is about to go on her mission and I’m just realizing how incredibly blessed I am and the spirit is just too much for my body and comes out through my eyes I guess? Haha! Anyways it was an awesome adventure – like all of the times me and Jess hang out. It was really interesting for me because I’ve never been able to see that much of the temple, I’ve always been cut off at the baptisms. It’s crazy how much of all of the temples I’ve been to I’ve never seen.
My favorite room was the sealing room. Everyone I’ve talked to says the Celestial room is their favorite and yes, it is SOOO gorgeous. And I love how the temple worker explained it – it keeps you looking up – reminding us of how we should always be focusing on higher things than ourselves. But back to the sealing room. They had this super cute old couple explaining what happens in the sealing room. How we believe that when we are sealed in the temple, we are sealed for eternity to our family – our spouses, our children, and all of our family before and after us that have/will have the same ordinances done. Holland said in the video before the temple something along the lines of “I can’t imagine heaven without my family. It wouldn’t be heaven without my wife and children. That theology of neither is the man without the woman or the woman without the man is not only our theology, it’s good sociology” I loved it. I love him. But as me and Jess sat in there I just thought about how she could’ve gotten married so soon, but she’s giving it up to go on a mission. I thought about how some day (a long loooong timne from now) I will kneel at that alter with some incredibly amazing, spiritual, (and beautiful )young man who has kept himself clean for me as I am doing for him now and it just struck me. Oh my gosh this is incredible. If this church had nothing else to offer, but to be with your family forever, it would all be worth it. Once again I just bawled as is common in my life and everything was grand.
I heard an interesting thing from a friend of mine. Her family used to be in the church, but has left and I think they have some pretty bitter feelings toward the church. Her grandma went to the temple and decided it was extravagant and that we were just trying to show off. That made me really sad. The open house of the temple is an opportunity for those who are interested in the church or have questions to come see what happens and what we believe in and stuff like that. Plus, the temple is the house of the Lord! Of course we’re going to make it beautiful! It just made me really really sad, but grateful that I understand the truth.
Thursday night I went to desert star house with my parents. It was super fun. I love my parents. I love singing and plays. I love laughing. The worst part was that I was ridiculously tired and like coulnd’t even laugh I was so tired. It was still fun though!
Friday day I went to the state drill competition. It sure made me grateful for all of my friends who came to my competitions! It took a lot of time out of my day, I hate driving far, and it cost money. So I gotta give mad props to everyone who’s come to my competitions!
Friday night was my sorority retreat. It was fun to play with the girls! We had good chats and I just love those girls.
Saturday I was fantastic! We had a prom for Jessica since it’s her last weekend here. She leaves on her mission Wednesday holy crap! But it was way fun! I took Michael sandberg. We went to Tuscany (the restaurant not the country;)) for dinner and then came back to my house to dance. Michael is an AMAZING photographer and took some amazing pictures which I am SO excited for!
Today in sacrament I realized how much I love watching the boys pass the sacrament (not because they’re cute or anything like that… I mean I go to the singles ward and sometimes they are but that’s not why!) I love watching them (especially when they finish and look up to the bishop so he can OK it) and realized how much power they have and that sometime soon they will be the ones OKing the sacrament prayer.
W have a new “member missionary” Sunday school class and I’m so excited about it! Adam Hathaway teaches it (Katie hathaway’s big bro) and it was awesome! I’ve had a lot of opportunities to share the gospel and this class just inspires me more. One of the guys in my class told his conversion story and it just made me so excited. (Once again the spirit was just shooting out through my eyes… it’s a good thing I really don’t wear make up anymore!) I just want the faith that the man from my class had for my friends who don’t have it. They may think they’re happy and they don’t need anything else in their life, but really. This church is incredible. It not only brings happiness to those in it, but it brings them purpose. This class inspired me to read Preach my Gospel a third time – this time I will read it in my own context and make it so it makes sense for me at home because I may never be a full time missionary although that still is the goal.
Wednesday in institute, this girl spoke up in class about how she was trying to be a good example for her family, especially her little sister because they’re not active in the church. For some reason I felt prompted to tell her her Heavenly Father is proud of her for what she is doing and to stay on the path she’s on. It was the most incredible feeling and just reminded me of one of Holland’s talks. He spoke of how his wife always prayed for the spirit to help her help others, and I’ve decided I can be that person. I can be that answer to prayers! I have to stay in tune and act when I feel a prompting. The Lord can count on me to be a tool!
Yay for random thoughts. Here they are!
So basically my whole ward was released and put into new callings this week. It was really cool because my new relief society president stood up to speak in RS and it was like… oh ya she’s the president. The mantle really had been passed and I know that it’s not like priesthood-it’s a calling but I dunno it was just great to me.
I love my ward – if you’re not up right after the bishopbric member sits down, you don’t get to speak. It’s basically a race to the pulpit haha!
I hate cell phones in church. I know that sometimes I text in church and it really just makes me mad at myself. I’ve been a lot better about it lately and its incredible how much the spirit was being chased away when I was texting. Makes me think of Nate Ruben and how he wouldn’t get one in high school (something that was really annoying to me actually) but it really makes sense to me now.
This is some of the things that people spoke about in testimony meeting.
• He guides us in ways we don’t comprehend
• Adam Hathaway came up and said you can tell when it’s fast Sunday… sounds like a creeky old ship! I thought that was funny!
• Adam also told a story about how attitudes can be contagious. He said that in his work the staff had stopped working as hard as they had been. Their reasoning was that they weren’t being treated as they should. He had even stopped working at hard until he talked to someone else at his work. His friend was still working really hard and he explained why and it had to do with the company, but this story has more meaning than that to me. We can always “be a wall” as he said, to stop bad attitudes and the best way to do that is to be an example. I want to always be a wall and stop bad attitudes, or anything else that I feel that needs to be stopped!
• Tell those who inspire you what they do
• Without the spirit, there is no way to convince someone the church is true, we are just facilitators of the discussion, there to help them think and pray about it.
• I know it to be true, I do I do! I like this!
• The problem is not the negative thought – its your reaction to it
• A girl told a story in RS of how her mom met this homeless man and talked to him and it turns out he’s not like your regular homeless man. He lost everything because he had recently been in a divorce and was doing all he could to make it better. The lady wanted to help him, but only had 20s in her purse. She decided to give one to him anyway and felt like she should say “happy birthday” when she gave it to him. Turns out it was his birthday that week and he said “I knew my Heavenly Father loved me” and it just goes to show how we must always follow His promptings! You never know how much of a difference you can make in one’s life!
• I was just thinking about how cool the priesthood was and then I was thinking about myself, sure I don’t have it, but I have my own roles in this life. Number one would be to find someone that I will be able to have the priesthood in my home with, and then my job will be to take care of children and teach them the gospel, but until then I realized what I must do. I am here to help others and I’m going to be the best member missionary I can be, and its something I will be working on my whole life! Wow incredible!
• The greatest gift you can give a child (or anyone) is your testimony
• Obedience is not perfection, but constantly trying to walk as He walked
• Teach by example – I love this. Brother Wilcox talked about Alma the younger’s little talks to his sons in I think alma 25 through 27ish… basically it was do this “as I have done” I love that line. Be an example
Brother Wilcox told a story that I thought was so awesome. He had the question “Lord what would you have me do with my children” in his mind. He was sitting in sacrament and his daughter was a baby then and being really loud. He was told once that when his children weren’t being the best during sacrament, think of Jesus with children so you can still think of Christ. He was trying to think about it when he kind of was swept away by a vision. He was taken away to where Christ came to the Nephites and was blessing the children. He waited in line and then took his daughter to Christ. He felt like if he could just have Christ bless her, then she would grow up strong in the church and everything would be good – it would kind of take the responsibility or blame off of him. When it was finally his time, Christ took his daughter and when he blessed her, he said “I bless you that you will walk in the footsteps of your father and become like him” I love that. The Lord blessed her that she would follow her father. Making Brother Wilcox feel somewhat bad because that means he must be an example to her, to lead her to the kingdom. The whole “as I have done thing”. Incredible. He also talked about how it was like Christ asked him “do you understand your influence? Your ability to influence is greater than mine.” wow.
Isn’t it incredible that in our church, visions still happen? I’ve actually had one myself 2005 baby. Incredible. I love my church. I love that we have a living prophet today that talks to God. I love that we can each get our own revelation. I love my family. I love everything. I love my life.